You were unannounced

You began to form in my broken body

You gave me no signs

You were silently present

I didn’t know…I promise

I dropped the acid

I drank every liquor

I smoked legally and illegally

I tried to die slowly

I didn’t know…I promise

You could have been the live-in’s

You could have been the date rapist’s

You could have been the one night stand’s

You were still pure

I didn’t know…I promise

You announced you were leaving

You made your painful goodbye

You were silenced

You still haunt me

I didn’t know…I promise

I see you every day

I see you in every child

I see you in every corner of my mind

I see you in Heaven

I didn’t know…I promise

I need forgiveness from

God

My Child

Myself

I didn’t know…I promise

I won’t forget

I won’t deny

I won’t let go

I won’t stop loving you

I didn’t know…I promise